Everywhere

WARNING: This blog will be everywhere! I do not have one thought, but many!

Last night was the Super Bowl and I had a great time with some friends at a SB Party! I seriously didn't care who won! It was a very good game the first half! that is besides the point, I want to talk about Coach of the Colts, he lost his son last year from suicide. What was bothering me was the people talking about it around me... They were talking about how the coach has overcome the hurt and now talks about suicide and his son to large groups and congregation. I wasn't thinking about the coach at all I wanted to know why? What was going on in the son's life that he thought it would be better to end his life then cope with the pain? What could have been done? I know nothing can be done now because he is gone... It makes me think of a friend that lost her best friend... He was a christian that struggled with same sex attraction and didn't know how to deal with it. He left a note... His car was found in Big Bear, but his body was never found. Why? It makes me hurt for the families..

I'm sorry for the sad post! I'll make it better!
I spent 4 years in college looking for a church. I was looking for the 'perfect' church.. What did I find? I found that the perfect church doesn't exist... The last year I was searching for not the perfect church, but the church that i could grow in and get involved with... Did I find it? Yep! I have been going to Sandals for about six months now and I love it! I am involved with a small group and have grown in my relationship with Him. I wish I knew more people from church! I'll have to work on that.. Maybe volunteer at the office or something...

So I am picking up my refund check tomorrow! I will put most of it in savings to pay my car payment, but I want to buy a camera... Roxi you may be getting a call from me soon to go camera shopping!

So I am coming up to my year of knowing my mentor... Well actually it was a year today that I contacted him! I am so priveledged of having david as my mentor! He is the only person who calls me out, challenges me, and knows when I am lying! He is one of two people who truely knows me inside out. I am so thankful that God put a Man of God like David in my life. I am also coming up to a year I would like to call "My Journey of Healing... Chapter 1". This past year I have realised that there were and still are things in my life that keep me from drawing to Him. I look forward to another year and Chapter 2 of this journey!

Highlights of Chapter 1:
Meeting David
Having accountability in my life
Discovering my real needs and how I so often fill my needs with stuff that is not of Him
Starting Healing
Understanding God the Father in a completely new way
Forgiveness... Still trying to grasp this one!
Realizing I have an eatting disorder (Not the way you think of... I over eat)
Losing 55 pounds!
Becoming a leader in Broken in!
There are some more.. But I have been at this blog for awhile.. I'm done for now!

Peace!