Distractions

I ask for Alayna's forgiveness right now.. I haven't started reseaching for our lit review.. I have been distracted for two hours! So I'm going to waist more time and blog!

I called my parents this morning... I should rephrase that... I called every single phone my parents have to get a hold of them... I called home, cell phones, and office... My dad finally picked up his cell phone. He was at work... On monday the price of fertilizer goes up, so all the fertilizer companies (my dad sells to) want to get it while it's cheap! I know, exciting times of my family and the business! That is all besides the point... I asked my dad where my mom was.. She was bringing my dad and his employees cookies! Isn't my mom a good bosses wife? I wonder what kind of cookies she made them? Peanut butter? choclate chip? mrs. fields? Oatmeal Raisin? M&M? I am not kidding when I say that my mom makes the best cookies ever! Seriously! My mouth is watering haha! I'm such a fat kid! I wish my mom would send me cookies... I don't need them though... I haven't had the best eatting habits lately!

I'm at Java Bliss right now! Best coffee shop in Riverside! Asian's know how to do the coffee shop thing! There tea's are great here! Is it bad to say that I enjoy going to coffee shops and listening to conversations... There are two guys behind me, They are christian guys. One is from Tenessee.. I don't know if he is a record producer or a pastor, or a music artist... But I have enjoyed some of there conversation. The other guy is from Riverside and he must be a worship leader at harvest or something.. He is young... The two people that are working are having very random conversations here and there. One of the workers is the owners son and the other is a high schooler... They are both pretty funny...

I 'm going to be honest right now (As if I wasn't being honest before).. I have and do strugle with the thought of forgiveness.. Sometime I can totally grasp it and other times I have a hard time understanding it... I'm not talking about me forgiving others, but Christ forgiving us.. Well I shoud say forgiving me! I know for sure that I am forgiven and God Forgives, but I don't think I am worthy of forgiveness... I feel like I have done so much that I shouldn't be forgiven... I guess I sturggle with forgiving myself... I'm rambling... I've spent way to much time here.. I should get going... Peace!