There have been a couple things on my mind for the past week or so that I'm having trouble grasping.

On tuesday night I was at a meeting for the overseas trip that I might go on. We were in the middle of prayer when someone's phone kept vibrating in our group. but we prayed through it. I got kind of concerned because it just kept ringing and ringing. We finally finished praying and one of my friends answers her phone. she gets the voice mail from her mom that says she needs to call home ASAP, it's an emergency.. she told us that and I got a chill as she told us all. She calls her Dad's cell phone to find out that Her Uncle had commited suicide that night. After she got off the phone we gathered around her and prayed for her and then she went on her way to pick up her bro from school and go to be with family. This may sound rude, but my intentions are not that, but I am having a hard time with thinking about how someone with two kids and a wife could leave them in that manner. but what I'm having a really hard time with is, When that man stands before God, where does he go? I was taught when I was child that everyone who accepted christ into their heart goes to Heaven.. and when I got older I was taught that committing suicide is a selfish thing and that someone who did goes to hell? I'm sorry, my intentions again are not to be rude or anything to anyone, I'm just having trouble with this.


So I started this post and left it for like 9 hours on my computer and I think I am done now.. I'll write more later...

I went and saw Grandmas Boy tonight.. Horrible Movie.. didn't like it very much..