I know it has been awhile since I have written in this, so I will do a recap.
Spring break was fast. With work, then flying to sac and going to Tahoe and Davis.. Which was a blast. Then I went home and had Easter with my Family, Which was really good.
So I don't know what is with me lately. I'm not happy and I don't know why.. I'm wondering if it is my time of the month or something (guys have them too!). Last night I was watching Extreme Home Make-over and I started crying.. I don't know why.. I just did. I feel like I haven't conected with any of my friends or any of the guys on my wing. What have i been doing? I don't know... I can't even remember.. I don't know if it is because it is the end of the year and I am totally becoming an introvert!
So spring banquet is coming up. and I was going to ask Meagan.. I had it all planned out and everything. So I was chilling with one of my guys and some girls (that come up to my wing every open dorm) and they told me that Meagan already got asked. I wasn't happy.. I'm mad at myself, I should of asked her earlier. So I don't think I am going to go now. I'll probably not do anything, like usual.. Man I'm a loser. I'm starting to stress out about the closing of this semester. There is so much I have to do and there seems like I have no time.
Lately it feels like I don't know anything or anyone. I don't know what I am doing. I don't feel like investing time to do anything; Pray, read the Bible, Talk to friends, Be an RA, work out, Nothing! Maybe I need to leave for a little bit, like a afternoon, go and spend some time by myself.. Maybe I'll go to Running Springs and spend some time on the rock.. the place across the street from camp. I don't know.
I got a meeting, later.
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hey BFFA! I'm sorry things aren't going so well for you. I wish we could hang out and laugh again. Definitly am going through this whole lonely phase and it gets depressing. But if it helps I had a dream last night that you and i borrowed each others shoes, and you were wearing my heals and I wore your rainbows :) That's fun eh?
you should go with someone who is your friend and just have fun i mean i am sure you have plenty of friends who would go and havent been asked. i mean if it comes down to it you could always go wiht nikki i mean she is fun most the time. life is weird and i know how it is when you just feel like there isnt much to connect to so i go to the same places every day just about it. the same starbucks the same barnes and noble i know all the people there and they seem happy to see me and it makes me feel like i am part of my community. i dunno it keeps me sane,
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