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The time has come...

2007-09-03T11:46:00.000-07:00

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Moving!

2007-09-02T11:23:00.000-07:00

I apologise for the long absence...

I'm moving... Not to a different town or apt. but blogs... More to come! I want it to be perfect before I reveal. Peace!

Hppy Birthday Mom!

2007-08-11T15:46:00.000-07:00

Today is my Mom's birthday, so wish her a happy birthday! She came up and helped me move into my Apt. today with my Dad and she also decorated it. I think it looks good. I'm really tired, so peace!

My thoughts on College Week at Glorieta Conference Center

2007-08-09T14:56:00.000-07:00

So I'm finishing my week up at Glorieta. Besides being really long drive from the promise land (California), it is really nice here! It's kind of like big bear... Well except there is a thunder storm almost every night here.

I'm not exagerating when I say it feels like I am in a very different culture! From the music, to the morning chapel speaker and break out sessions, even to the food! Can you imagine having an option of buscuits and gravey for breakfast? EVERY DAY! Gross! The only buscuits and gravy I eat are my mom's because they really are the best! But anyways. I will be going in order to why college week has been so different and why the south is kind of a crooked place.

I'll start off by saying it feels like I have been attending a jr high/high school camp all this week. Not kidding! When The Worship band makes you lift your hands and spin around to the song "marvelous light", to the 'When I say Jesus, you say Christ" yelling they were wanting COLLEGE students to get involved in. C'mon... Really is this your culture? This would never fly at a college conference in Califonia! The music really hasn't been great either, except one morning with this praise band from texas, they brought it!

The mornign chapel speaker was hit and miss. I mean he was good, but you could tell that he was really preaching to the students that were from the south. Really! From the jokes that us californians weren't getting, to some of the vocabulary he used. He was from LA (not Los Angeles, Louisiana)... Now the night chapel speaker was AMAZING! He is our seek week chapel speaker in CBU. I can not wait for him to come to CBU! His name is David Platt... Seriously amazing! I bought almost all of his messages this week. I will share if you would like to hear!

The break out seasons were good, a lot of them were on dating... Typical! and there were a few on missions, sexual identity, diversity, and social justice. Over all the break out sessions I went to were pretty good!

The food... Camp food... enough said...

Well it has been a good week and I am ready to be back! Peace

Oh Glorieta! part one!

2007-08-05T10:47:00.000-07:00

So I'm at a college student/leaders conference in Glorieta, New Mexico! Man it was a long drive! Well what would have been a twleve hour drive took us two days. I didn't know that traveling with three children would inhibit our ability to drive more then 4 hours with out stopping. It was a good drive but I don't know how I'm going to handle the drive back with the long stops and spending the night, especially since I am moving the day we drive in. I pray that JMo will let one van drive back with out stopping to stay the night in Kingman, AZ.

Well the conference has been good, it's only the first day out of like six, but it's Ok. There are so many white people here! It's a little discouraging! And we are the only people from California here, the rest are primarily from Texas or Oklahoma and for some reason they don't like Californians very much. I haven't discovered why yet? But I am determined to find out! TIme for lunch, I'm out! Peace!

Spending, Carlos' sermon, and a little Ramble

2007-07-24T18:34:00.000-07:00

I have to tell you all something. I like spending money.... When I have it! And sometimes I get myself in a little trouble. I'm not in trouble! But I have been making good money and have gone shopping way to much! I bought three new pairs of shoes, a pair of jeans, a couple shirts, some khakis, a dress shirt, and a couple pair of shorts. I need to stop! and I am because I have to pay my 1st months rent and deposit in august. AND I need to buy a couch and a TV stand. Thank God I still have two or three paychecks are coming!

Tonight I listened to Carlos' (www.ragamuffinsoul.com) sermon last Sunday. One of the questions he asked the congregation was, what do you find most important in your life? I think it is a hard question to answer. For me, that is like asking who is your best friend? or If you could eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be? Those are freaken hard questions for me! I mean I could do the 'oh so good christian' thing and say God, but to answer it honestly, right now, would God be the most important think in my life? I don't know. I don't like being the good christian, I want to be a little More edgy then good! haha... To answer the question with no thought I would have probably blurted out community... Just because it has been something I have been reflecting on lately. Why would I answer community? Because I think it is something that all of us need in order to live, connect, and grow. I miss my community! I miss my small group! I miss CBU!

I think God has really been affirming my crrier choice lately. I don't think I have ever REALLY not liked my job, except for now. It's not that I don't like working for my Dad, I think it is because I have this mentality that 'I am better then (fill in the job at the time)'... Is it OK to feel that way? I don't necessarily feel that I am better then people at my dads work... That's a lie... Sometimes I do... I think I am just ready to move on! And I partly think that God is teaching my that I am not bigger, better, or more educated then His plan, His time of learning, or His Healing... Reality Check!

Please pray for Lindsay Lohan, she needs Broken-in!!! Peace!

Things I miss

2007-07-22T00:29:00.000-07:00

I have one more week of work and then I am out of here. I have enjoyed my time with my parents, but I am very excited to get on with my own life. But I wanted to dwell on the things I have missed while in Brawley...

Not in any particular order...

- A structured diet
- My own space (I have been living out of my suit cases for the last... Well counting Malaysia... 6 weeks!)
- Structure and Discipline in life as a whole!
- Community (church, friends, etc.)
- My work out (Mt. Roubidoux..sp?)
- Chipotle!
- Trader Joe's
- Cooler Weather!
- Clean air... haha J/K!
- Accountability and being mentored (not that it stopped when I moved, but I just don't get to have it face to face)... I feel lost, discouraged, and frusterated without it!

While I have been in the utermost southern region of California I have grown to enjoy some things and one of them is my twin brother. Not that I didn't ever enjoy him, it's just we hardly ever see eachother... He is interning in a church in San Diego. If you want to see two brothers that can crack each other up over stupid things (that sometime no one understands) and the next minute be making fun of each other till someone gets mad, then back to cracking up with each other.. Then spend a little time with us one on one. He is one of few people that can make me cry with laughter...

There are many more things, but I'm forgetting them! I'm tired! I'm out! Peace!

A little ditty about my life

2007-07-18T18:06:00.000-07:00

But before I start I want talk about Riverside. I enjoy living in Riverside, infact I really like it. I know that there are many beautiful places to live, but Riverside has a small part of my heart. I know many people from other areas rip on Riverside for being dirty, ghetto, and filled with Bro's (all those probably true), but I like it! It is probably because I have spent five years of my life in the Riverside area and because it beats the hell out of Brawley! haha!

Last weekend I had the opportunity to be in Riverside. I can not tell you it was better then the past weekends in San Diego with my brother, but it was still nice and a pleasant stay! I got to hang out with apt. 31 and go shopping in Costa Mesa with Justin! I went to Chappy's going away party and met a new family from my church, the carters. Well I knew of them from the blogging world, but I finally got to meet them in person! On sunday I went to church and listened to to really good message by Joe Dallas and enjoyed panera with my mentor, David (By the way I still don't have your link... That comment thing didn't work).

Oh and the biggest part of this past weekend..... You guys are excited, aren't you?....Drum Roll please........ I finalized apartment stuff! Yep Mr. Matt Cobb and I will be residing in apartment 106 in Casa de Jerardo. Please come and visit when we move in! our Apt. is right by one of the pools! Oh we won't be moving in till august 11th, so I will be homeless when I move back up to Riverside from August 1st-3rd. I leave the 3rd for a retreat and return the 10th (Hopefully. My parents will actually be moving my stuff up on the 11th, which is my Mom's birthday! Isn't my mom a trooper? Well she wasn't very happy at first, but then my dad and I booked her (and my dad) a room at the missions inn, she was in a better mood once she found out where she was staying. Oh the gifts don't end there. I bought her a little something that I can not tell you about till someone else knows about it, but I will let you all know what else I got her soon.

Well I'm still working for my dad and my farmers tan is getting really bad! I am starting to get a glove tan too! It's kind of sick! I spent today triming 50 of the 100 trees he has on the property and dumping all the trash cans into the dumpster. Fun stuff, I know, be jealous! I'll finish the other 50 trees when the dumpster is emptied. Hopefully UP (union pacific) will bring in more rail cars to I can go back to my usual job. Roxi comes home tomorrow! That is all I have for you today! Peace!

Sorry for the delay!

2007-07-12T20:59:00.000-07:00

Ok so no pictures yet. I have them ready to go... But I can't hook up to the internet at my parents house... I don't know why... But I will try my hardest to have some up this weekend...

What have I been up to you may ask? Well... I moved from Riverside to Brawley for the month of july... I have finally found a way not to spend any money at all... Move to my parents house... I have been here two weeks and have maybe spent oh... $50? Now this is not counting the trips I have taken to San Diego to visit my brother (he is interning at a church there). Did I mention I am working? Yep! I'm working for my Dad... It's ok... I can't complain because I am making a substantial (sp?) amount of money and not really spending any... The work in manual labor and it is outside.. In Brawley... Where at 6:00 tonight and still 112... What will I buy in the future you might ask... Well probably a deposit and first months rent, maybe a new pair of jeans (nordstroms here I come!), and possibly a LCD flat screen for my new apartment. I have given much thought to the last one and have done some research.

This weekend (tomorrow afternoon actually) I will be heading up (Kind of weird to think that something actually exists past southern California) to Riverside to get away. I have a Broken In Leadership meeting for church (oh how I miss my church) and I'm going to be hanging out at Hostel 31... I may crash a going away party... Well I'm assuming Kim just forgot to add me to the e-vite, but I'm coming anyways! haha! Don't worry Mo, I will come with a gift fitting for a person who will be traveling across the country...

This morning I registered for classes... I can't believe by May of next year I will be done with Grad school. After graduating I think I will have everyone call me Master Kyle... Any Thoughts? I was chatting with my cousin and she thinks that we should act snobby and only talk to eachother at Thanksgiving, She is a speech theropist(sp?).. I told it would get a little boring... When I registered for classes it gives me a brief overview at the end of how much each semester is costing... I think I'm going to be poor for the rest of my life! Especially if I am going back for my PhD. Oh man... More loans!!! PTL!!!

Alright I'm out... I need to shower and pack! Peace!

I'm Back!

2007-06-23T16:30:00.003-07:00

I'm back from Malaysia... I'm tired and a little hungry... I am looking for people to keep me up till 8 or 9! So call me!

Week Three

2007-06-18T21:06:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not updating in awhile. I have been a little busy and with out Internet. This weekend we went up to the mountains. It was nice and cool there! I took many pictures this weekend (267 to be exact) but have recently found out that there is something wrong with my memory card in my camera and it started doing weird things to the last oh 100 or so pictures. So I have taken about 500 pictures and have only been able to keep about 200 to 250… and so of the ones I really liked were messed up… I guess that means I will have to come back some other time to take pictures! I have learned my lesson… buying a 4G Sony memory card off of e-bay for $45 isn’t the best idea.

By Saturday afternoon (Friday night California time) I will be boarding a plane and heading back home. I have really enjoyed my time here in Southeast Asia. It was something I totally was and wasn’t expecting. I know it was going to be humid… But not this humid. I expected my room to have AC and it did not. I didn’t expect to come in contact with so many countries. I wasn’t expecting for my views of different countries to be radically changed by people and the discussions I have had with people of those countries. I wasn’t expecting my beliefs and values to be challenged. I was expecting to see our creator work in every teammates life, but I wasn’t expecting our maker to radically change each and every teammate!

This experience has been all but easy! It’s been freaken hard, but I wouldn’t change it for anything! One of the hardest things has been explaining my Masters degree… They don’t understand how or why I switched from a business background to an education background. And then when they ask me if I want to teach and I say not necessarily, they then ask me why I am getting my degree in education. I then have to explain to them what I degree entails. After I am done with that then they want to ask me about the education system in the United States. Anybody know how to explain the higher education system in about 10 to 15 mins? I don’t… I usually just explain the California higher education system (as if it is the easiest one to explain). And after I am done explaining the education system I have to explain why private schools are so expensive… I’m glad my Masters degree prepared me to be the team expert in the US education system. I had one student who does not speak English very well at all ask me what was the difference between CBU and Harvard. I wanted to laugh in his face, but I didn’t… I tried to explain the best way possible.

Alright, I got to get going. I have to do some one on one debriefs… talk to you later. Peace!

Update 2- Week 2!

2007-06-11T03:55:00.000-07:00

Side note:
I started this project of blogging close to 3:30 pm here (12:30 AM your time!) and here it is close to 7PM (I went back to the class room because I left my charger to my lap top there. I ended up staying there till 6PM and came up to the library)… I have waited for blogger to send me to my post page for about an hour!!!!! You should be more then happy that I blog!

I want to start out and apologize for my grammar! Talking to the students here has shorten my vocabulary and has caused to speak (and sometimes think) in broken English sometimes…

If you want to hear more about my trip go to www.xanga.com/nilai. The people we are working with have posted some updates about us… And if you want some other updates go to www.calbaptist.edu/isp. Find Southeast Asia A… I think….

So I just found out that I had frog legs for dinner last night. Umm, wasn’t aware of it till I checked the xanga web site. They were really boney and I ended up spitting bones out of my mouth for like 10 mins. Mmm, I’m glad I didn’t rip into that like all the girls did! Haha! Suckers!

Things are going very well here. I do have pictures downloaded on to my computer, but it will take forever to get them on my blog… The Internet is very slow. The students are doing a great job with teaching and interacting with the students. I think I have finally got into the swing of things and have discovered my role (as a leader) on the team. I am learning a lot about tough love and how I really need to show it to some of our team and others I need to be a little more loving when it comes to confrontation. Today I am really tired, So I am having alone time right now in the library, checking e-mails and what not. I don’t know how long the Internet is going to work today (it has been off and on for several days) So I am going reply to some of my e-mails on my blog.

Oh! Its still hot here if anyone wanted to know! I am sweating in place that I thought couldn’t produce sweat… Like my knee caps… who sweats from there knee caps? I do!

Mom and Dad,
Thanks for writing back to tell me you got my e-mail… Wait you didn’t! I love you anyways! Mom don’t worry I don’t think I am going to bring you any more crap from different countries. I think I am over buying souvenirs. If you are bummed I’ll give you a picture that I took and frame it!

David and Beth,
I’m still waiting for pics of Delaney (sp?)!

Megan McDeez,
I didn’t understand your comment on facebook about my ear hurting? So I got a text on my Southeast Asian Phone (Mom and Dad if you read this… It’s not my sprint! We have different cell phone’s here) and the guy who text me texts just like you! With DA and all the misspelled words! It made me laugh!

Roxi,
Sorry I couldn’t reply to your myspace… Thanks for the comment!! I’m glad that you had a great time in Florida! We will have to meet up and talk when you and I both return!

Update 1

2007-06-05T00:58:00.000-07:00

You guys are so lucky I am updating… After sending three e-mails I have almost given up on doing anything else. Let me tell you, Lancermail (CBU’s e-mail) sucks overseas! It took me forever! I finally gave up and started using gmail.

Well we are here! We are all doing well and ready to start teaching tomorrow. Today We decorated our classroom and the team started preparing to teach. They had lessons already planned so they are just had to brush up a bit. On our first whole day here we went “in to town” (Not KL, but a small town) and had Pizza Hut for lunch, everyone was very surprised that is tasted like it did in the states! The girls found out how to use a squatty potty! They tell me it was quite comedic!

It is freaking hot here.. Well not hot like I’m used to… It’s Humid. I thank God that all the building have air conditioning… Did I say all, I meant most. My room has no air conditioning, but I am only in there at night, so it is not that bad. It is really green all around us. The college we are at is basically surrounded by luscious (like that describing word?) Jungle.

Tonight we are all going to have a BBQ with the family we are working with at a church and the Christian club here on campus. Word on the streets is that they have a nice big house. I will take pictures and hopefully post them. Alright, I’m out! I’ll try to post pictures later. Peace!

Gone for now!

2007-06-01T14:48:00.000-07:00

Passport - Check
Luggage - Check (almost done packing)
Tickets - Check
Money - Check

Tomorrow night I will be off to Southeast Asia! I'll try to blog when I can! Peace!

This weekend

2007-05-29T09:46:00.000-07:00

This weekend was pretty darn busy and it's my last full weekend until I leave for southeast asia. Saturday I had the opportunity to celebrate a birthday with firends. It was Roxi's birthday and it was so much fun. Here is a picture of Roxi and I.

I then spent the rest of my weekend at home. I saw pirates 3... I thought it was good... Long.. but good! I got to spend time with my bro and the rest of the family. On Monday we had a family BBQ and it was good. It was a very peacful and restful time at home. Here is a couple of pics of my favorite (and only) niece..

Isn't she cute? She does her own posses!

I'm Lost, Your Lost, We're all LOST!

2007-05-24T10:58:00.000-07:00

So Lost... Was AMAZING last night! I don't know what to do with myself... What will I do with my Wednesday nights now? Well I only have one more Wednesday night till I head to Southeast Asia, but still.... The season is over!

So besides Lost another thing happened last night... We had two earthquakes! I actually like earthquakes... The shaking and how you can hear the quake coming... It's great!

I'm looking for a place to live (Preferably in Riverside)... Anyone got any ideas? I need a place to crash late July/Beginning of August... Anybody know of anyone that has a room/guest house/ travel trailer (I've done it before...) to rent that is relatively cheap? Considering I get paid almost nothing...

Before I head to the Parents house...

2007-05-11T13:15:00.000-07:00

I'm going back to my stomping grounds to see mom on mom's day... Isn't that every day???? enough said....

So for the past... 2 days I have spent my evenings at the happiest place on earth, but I have learned something... When Kyle is hungry it is not the happiest place on earth... If you didn't know a different personality leashes out when my stomach is not satisfied with the proper nerishment it needs... And I start looking something like this at Disneyland... I don't think the picture does any glory to the attitude I portraied...

I get this from my father... He is very grouchy when he is hungry...

Another thing I leaned is when I am a parent I WILL NOT drag my kids to disneyland from opening to closing... Unless I want to hear noises screech out of them and tears flow like water... Kids just can't take 12-16 hours of going and waiting hours to ride one ride and then rushing to the next ride to wait in line while someone else gets fast passes to another ride...

Maybe it's just me...

2007-05-11T10:52:00.000-07:00

So sometimes I feel like I am being judged on my future employment decisions... I mean I guess people don't understand that I need a GA position in order to fulfill assistantship hours for my Grad program... I think some people think that I am not doing anything except working a low paying job and applying for another one to "Waste Time" or "Hold off till I can figure what I want to be when I 'grow up'"... But I don't think they understand... Oh well... So NO I'm not wasting time or trying to figure out what I want to do... In fact the GA possition is euipping me for my profession... And it isn't JUST a job...

I feel like I haven't shared about my life in a while. I am finishing up my first assistantship and in the process of mulling over some other opportunities that have come my way... So life is a little full of decissions and stress of what is going to be the 'next step'... I'm going to Southeast Asia for the month of june, which should be an a-maz-ing experience!!! I'm so excited about going!!! Now I need to worry about moving out of my apt. and finding a place to live for the month of july.. I should probably find a job too... But maybe not... I have a place to store my stuff and most of my bills are paid for.. I guess I could wonder for the month... If I have the funds to do that... If any of you know of a job thatt will house me a pay a little cash, let me know! or just pay for housing and meals... That would be cool... alright, so that is what's going on... I'm out.. Peace!

Pray for me... I mean US!!!

2007-04-27T14:54:00.000-07:00

This is my ISP Southeast Asia ESL team.. They are all great!!! We leave in a little over a month... We all have very different personalities, but some how we all get along... God definitely has a personality! Please pray for us as we spend this month a part and head out for three weeks.

I'm lame!

2007-04-27T14:32:00.000-07:00

I know I'm lame.. I haven't blogged since the 11th.. Well I don't really know who reads this.. So maybe I'm not lame...

Here is the Readers Digest version of my past couple of weeks...
Work..
School...

Done.

Yep, I lead a pretty boring life... Well not really.. I get to hang out with students and attend student events as a job... And I get paid for it! So I have a pretty Amazing Job!!!!
So this past couple of weeks I have gone to Disneyland, The wild Animal Park (That may have been before the 11th), Wicked, and presented at the Christian College Leadership Conference at APU (all for free). I was also a judge for Battle of the Bands and assisted with Campus Days. Needless to say, I am a little tired!

Ok.. I don't know where I was going with this blog... I will blog more later! I promise! And those of you who have messaged me or e-mailed me and I haven't replied.. I'm sorry!

Forgiveness and Horses... A two-part blog

2007-04-11T08:11:00.000-07:00

This morning I was reading a book that I started about six months ago and still haven't managed to finish it... It's a good a book, but with all the reading for my classes, I cannot find time to read for leisure. Now that I have a week off of classes (No, not spring break, Grad Students don't have spring break), I can do some fun reading. The part of the book I read today was about confession and forgiveness... It seems to be a theme in my life... Forgiveness... Which it should be a theme, it seems like a bigger theme in my life then most... Probably because I grasp the concept of forgiveness of others... I can't seem to forgive myself. But the chapter didn't talk about that.. It was about confessing to a friend and that friend proclaiming forgiveness upon your life. Kind of like a priestly proclamation. Not that I am catholic, but it seems like they have something going on there with confession (The part about confessing there sins to one another.. Not the Hail Mary’s and stuff like that).

Well this is what got my attention today, an excerpt from Bonhoeffer, "Who can give us the certainty that, in the confession and the forgiveness of our sins, we are not dealing with ourselves but the living God? God gives us this certainty through our brother... The assurance of forgiveness becomes fully certain to me only when it is spoken by a brother in the name of God. Mutual, brotherly confession is given to us by God in order that we may be sure of divine forgiveness."

Part two!

Tomorrow I am going to corona to train and ride horses... I'm really excited. I am helping out a lady from my church and I am kind of nervous. I haven't been on a horse in about oh... thirteen years... I love animals and have wanted to ride horses for sometime! I hope I remember how to..It's been a long time. I'll let you all know how it goes... I better get out my boots from my time of being in FFA (Future Farmers of America)... Yep, I was in FFA... ha-ha!

The What ifs and stories!

2007-04-10T20:06:00.000-07:00

So I just read a friends blog and it inspiried me to write... right at this moment... Actually it wasn't just one friends blog, but a couple. I was talking to a friend today, she is graduating (like many of my friends) and she (they) have a bad case of the what if's... I don't know how to explain it other then the questioning of what is going to happen when one is closing a chapter in their life and starting a new chapter... An exciting and stressful time of life... The easy answer would be (to most of them), "Don't worry God is in control"... But really, who wants to heat that answer? I didn't... Not that it's a bad answer... It's just a sunday school, kind of staing the obvious, answer... All I am saying is, Yeah life is stressful right now, but don't worry this time will pass! I'm sorry that was kind of off... I'm now going to start typing what I really wanted to talk about!

'If you could go back in time what would you change? A time in your life? a decision? an experience? anything?' I really don't like these questions.. Because what comes out of my mouth without thinking is "YES"... But after thinking about it, I want to say "No"... My experiences, decisions, and life development make me who I am now, the good and the bad... No one in the world has a story like mine.. I mean we may all have a commonality with each other, but no one experienced what I experienced! Yes I have a twin brother and we may look alike, but we are really nothing alike! If my right of experiences and decisions were taken away from me or I was able to change something, I think it would trigger another decision which would make me different from what I am now. My story is MY STORY! The good and the bad, the struggles and the healing! I wouldn't change it for the world... Why? Because I believe God gave all of us a story to share with one another and the world... I just wish I had the boldness to share my story with others!

And people say I'm not compassionate? phiishh!

I have no compassion

2007-04-03T20:19:00.000-07:00

Ok, so if you know me you may know that it kind of takes me a lot of effort to have compassion... I'm sorry, it's one of my down falls... But I feel like I need to share this... Back ground behind the story... At my work there is a couple that sits on one chair and makes out all the time! These two people are not small AT ALL! We have to tell them all the time to stop! Oh and the girl is out of dress code a lot too!

Well The girl comes into the Game Room crying... I knew because I could hear here all the way from my office. Her boyfriend takes her aside and they start talking.. Well I guess when she was eatting lunch with some firends in the caf the girl told one of her friends that she didn't need Pizza because it would make her fat... Well I guess one of her friends called her out and told her she shouldn't worry about it because she is already fat! This is where the uncompassionate bastard comes out... I had to leave my office and go to the workroom so they wouldn't hear me laugh... I know I'm bad!! But sometimes the truth hurts! HAHA!

Sorry!

Sorry!

2007-04-02T07:33:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry I haven't posted in a while.. I will get to it soon... I have finals this week, so hopefully I can find time to blog.

I feel like a diversity slut

2007-03-16T00:07:00.000-07:00

It's 12am and I'm still awake... We had an interesting time in diversity class. I will refrain from talking about it too much because I would like to respect my class in our discussions, we need to have a safe place and the only way to keep it safe is to keep it confidential.

But I will discuss my title... I do feel like a diversity slut... it's because of a side comment a person stated in class today, which is why I think discussions in our class shouldn't leave our class! But anyways!

So after class some friends in my cohort and I have been debriefing our class at starbucks... It has been a really good time to discuss our thoughts on diversity, the church, and the christian university. I wish we could tape it and send it to our professor just so she would know that what we talk about in class in taking shape outside of class.

So I'm coming to the relization that the areas of life I am passionate about are very different from everyone else's... I'm tired... I'm out! Peace!

Experiencing Life

2007-03-07T08:18:00.000-08:00

I know this is probably going to be a weird blog.. But I haven't blogged in a week and some days and I feel bad because of it...
This morning I got up and was thinking about how I love hearing people’s stories... or should I say testimonies... I guess it is because I like to know where people come from and what has happened in their life. You can usually tell a lot about a person when they communicate about their childhood and experiences in the development stages of life. What I like most is witnessing changes in people’s lives.
I had the privilege (and I really do mean that) of living in the dorms all four years of college, two of those years I was an RA. I enjoy seeing where my residents are now and remembering when they moved in. I can remember Justin, Tyler, Brandon, Brendon, Joe, and many others move in to the hall the first day.. I can remember how timid and fragile they were as freshman. I have seen God move in their lives and direct them to where they are now. I'm in no way saying that I had an impact on there lives, what I am saying is that I'm so thankful that I got the privilege to see them grow to who they are now.. I look forward to the next stages they have coming... All of them will be graduating in a couple of years, some of them will get married after graduation (which is very common for CBU), some of them will go to seminary, others will go to grad school or start working. I'm glad I got to share this experience with them.

Some new investments

2007-03-07T07:55:00.000-08:00

This past weekend I thought it would be wise to invest some money in the cleanliness and upkeep of my powerbook (I know, I 'm kind of old school... I can't afford to geet a macbook or macbook pro, but I like how small my 12' power book is).. So I bough a case and a protection pack from marware. I like the protection pack.. But I feel that I got jipped (sp?). I paid $21 and I can get it at marware.com for oh $10... I'm going to go talk to the CBU book store! Oh I got a New case too! I love the case it's from incase! Here is some pics of my new investments!

Distractions

2007-02-24T10:58:00.000-08:00

I ask for Alayna's forgiveness right now.. I haven't started reseaching for our lit review.. I have been distracted for two hours! So I'm going to waist more time and blog!

I called my parents this morning... I should rephrase that... I called every single phone my parents have to get a hold of them... I called home, cell phones, and office... My dad finally picked up his cell phone. He was at work... On monday the price of fertilizer goes up, so all the fertilizer companies (my dad sells to) want to get it while it's cheap! I know, exciting times of my family and the business! That is all besides the point... I asked my dad where my mom was.. She was bringing my dad and his employees cookies! Isn't my mom a good bosses wife? I wonder what kind of cookies she made them? Peanut butter? choclate chip? mrs. fields? Oatmeal Raisin? M&M? I am not kidding when I say that my mom makes the best cookies ever! Seriously! My mouth is watering haha! I'm such a fat kid! I wish my mom would send me cookies... I don't need them though... I haven't had the best eatting habits lately!

I'm at Java Bliss right now! Best coffee shop in Riverside! Asian's know how to do the coffee shop thing! There tea's are great here! Is it bad to say that I enjoy going to coffee shops and listening to conversations... There are two guys behind me, They are christian guys. One is from Tenessee.. I don't know if he is a record producer or a pastor, or a music artist... But I have enjoyed some of there conversation. The other guy is from Riverside and he must be a worship leader at harvest or something.. He is young... The two people that are working are having very random conversations here and there. One of the workers is the owners son and the other is a high schooler... They are both pretty funny...

I 'm going to be honest right now (As if I wasn't being honest before).. I have and do strugle with the thought of forgiveness.. Sometime I can totally grasp it and other times I have a hard time understanding it... I'm not talking about me forgiving others, but Christ forgiving us.. Well I shoud say forgiving me! I know for sure that I am forgiven and God Forgives, but I don't think I am worthy of forgiveness... I feel like I have done so much that I shouldn't be forgiven... I guess I sturggle with forgiving myself... I'm rambling... I've spent way to much time here.. I should get going... Peace!

A dilema!

2007-02-23T14:12:00.000-08:00

I cut my hair short about six months ago.. I like it, sometimes! It's easy to manage and lets be real, shorter hair on guys maked them look a little more slimming then poofy hair.. I'm tempted to grow my hair out again.. I miss the curls! What should I do?

Keep it short?

Or grow it out?

In His Image week.

2007-02-15T12:45:00.000-08:00

So I was asked to share my story in a couple of weeks at the opening of 'In His Image Week' at CBU... I'm excited, a little nervous, and keep questioning why they asked me to tell me story...I haven't told it very much and I don't know who would have told the committee... I just got done meeting with my neighbor (she is facilitating the event) and talking about what I need to go over... WOOO Eatting disorders! Yep thats what I get to share about and how I struggle with my image! I am thinking how I am going to approach the subjects and share my story of recovery, because my story of recovery has to do more then just my image... I know, I'm rambling... So I mentioned to my parents that I had an eatting disorder during christmas break... They laughed...Seriously! and told me I didn't... I had to remind them that over eatthing is an eatting disorder... I don't know if they still believed that I have an eatting disorder..

Lately God has been teaching me to be honest... I'm not honest enough... Not that I am a habitual liar, I just tend to leave stuff out so I won't become vulnerable to people... I need to start being honest with myself and others... I heard once that being honest is a step closer in the journey of healing... So from now on, I'll try to be more honest with myself, others, and God! That sounded really Sandals like! I got to get going! I'm starting to get the coffee jitters because I haven't eatten for awhile.. Later!

Oh I'll be sharing my story monday, feb. 26th @ 9:30PM in the staples room. If any of you want to go!

Peace!

Everywhere

2007-02-05T18:44:00.000-08:00

WARNING: This blog will be everywhere! I do not have one thought, but many!

Last night was the Super Bowl and I had a great time with some friends at a SB Party! I seriously didn't care who won! It was a very good game the first half! that is besides the point, I want to talk about Coach of the Colts, he lost his son last year from suicide. What was bothering me was the people talking about it around me... They were talking about how the coach has overcome the hurt and now talks about suicide and his son to large groups and congregation. I wasn't thinking about the coach at all I wanted to know why? What was going on in the son's life that he thought it would be better to end his life then cope with the pain? What could have been done? I know nothing can be done now because he is gone... It makes me think of a friend that lost her best friend... He was a christian that struggled with same sex attraction and didn't know how to deal with it. He left a note... His car was found in Big Bear, but his body was never found. Why? It makes me hurt for the families..

I'm sorry for the sad post! I'll make it better!
I spent 4 years in college looking for a church. I was looking for the 'perfect' church.. What did I find? I found that the perfect church doesn't exist... The last year I was searching for not the perfect church, but the church that i could grow in and get involved with... Did I find it? Yep! I have been going to Sandals for about six months now and I love it! I am involved with a small group and have grown in my relationship with Him. I wish I knew more people from church! I'll have to work on that.. Maybe volunteer at the office or something...

So I am picking up my refund check tomorrow! I will put most of it in savings to pay my car payment, but I want to buy a camera... Roxi you may be getting a call from me soon to go camera shopping!

So I am coming up to my year of knowing my mentor... Well actually it was a year today that I contacted him! I am so priveledged of having david as my mentor! He is the only person who calls me out, challenges me, and knows when I am lying! He is one of two people who truely knows me inside out. I am so thankful that God put a Man of God like David in my life. I am also coming up to a year I would like to call "My Journey of Healing... Chapter 1". This past year I have realised that there were and still are things in my life that keep me from drawing to Him. I look forward to another year and Chapter 2 of this journey!

Highlights of Chapter 1:
Meeting David
Having accountability in my life
Discovering my real needs and how I so often fill my needs with stuff that is not of Him
Starting Healing
Understanding God the Father in a completely new way
Forgiveness... Still trying to grasp this one!
Realizing I have an eatting disorder (Not the way you think of... I over eat)
Losing 55 pounds!
Becoming a leader in Broken in!
There are some more.. But I have been at this blog for awhile.. I'm done for now!

Peace!

Praise the Lord!

2007-01-25T20:57:00.000-08:00

Finals are done and I get a week off... Well I'm still in class listening to peopletalk about their learning environment designs... BORING!!! Alayna agrees with me that we should of left a long time ago! Alayna and I have been done with ours since 5:30! I think people like listening to themselves! In a good way of course! Peace!

A Ramble before I start homework

2007-01-21T21:36:00.000-08:00

I have been thinking about two things today... Well I should say three... and I think I am going to blog about them

First thought...Today matt talked about being a part of the sandals family... I consider myself a part of this very huge family and would like to know more people in this family.. But that is beside the point... As he was talking about the church and all that stuff I came to a conclusion about myself and my relationship with the church and Pastors. I have a phobia of Pastors... I know how ridiculous! I'm afraid of pastors! Pastor Matt introduced himself to me today (I've meet him like twice) He said, "I know you from somewhere" and I quickly said, "I work at CBU", not I'm a leader in Broken-in (I know shock to some people who know what broken-in is!) or I have been going here for a little while.. I quickly shot out an answer and then found a friend to walk to brunch with... I think it stems from a resent I had with a youth pastor that left my youth group when I was younger and the anger I felt because I had let someone in my world and now he was going to leave... And a pastor at my parent’s church I really looked up to and found out that he wasn't perfect and was asked to leave the church because of issues... I don't know.. Maybe I just get socially awkward around pastors and that’s how it's going to be... I hope not because I'm not a socially awkward person.

Thought 2... I'm cooking dinner Friday night for the leaders of the BI... We have two vegetarians in our group... What do I cook?... I looked up some recipes on the food network and decided on a roasted vegetable and penne bake... Had Keith, Jordan, and Matt come over for dinner.. They said it was really good and gave me some input as to what it could use a little more of... Got it all planned for dinner on Friday!

Third thought of the day... I put God in a box way too much... Especially when it comes to healing.. To me healing seems like it doesn't happen as much... I don't know why I said that.. God just slapped me in the face and made me realize the healing that has taken place in my own life... Thanks God... But back to before... I was reading my friend Ruth’s blog, she was sick for a very long time... And God healed her! (I just made a long story very very short) She was able to make it to see the rip age of 22! Ruth, if you read this I admire your willingness to listen and obey, you are awesome! I need not to put God in a box...

Well got to get to homework! Finals are this week and I am so ready for a break! Pray that I will not procrastinate!

P.S. Thanks Roxi for the camera info!

Peace!

New Camera.

2007-01-19T08:10:00.000-08:00

So I'm leading a team to south east asia this summer... I'm really excited and my team is amazing! But I need a new digital camera, the old (when I say old, i mean really old) digital camera won't do it this year. What should I get? I don't know anything about Cameras!

Who doesn't like Chk-fil-a!

2007-01-18T14:43:00.000-08:00

I love it.
Go to the Chik-fil-a off the Corona Crossings from 5PM-8PM
(15 south exit Cajalco)

Go tonight and Sandals Worldwide gets 10% of the profit for teams going overseas this summer.

I wish I could go, but I have class.. Damn class.. Welp got to finish my paper for class. two and a half pages to go!

Peace!

Short Blog.

2007-01-17T08:10:00.000-08:00

I though I would share this with you...

Everytime someone talks about freedom writers I think of freedom riders, which makes me think of the song Ridin' by Chamillionaire. So stop talking about freedom writer people because They see me rollin, They hatin, Patrolling they tryin to catch me ridin dirty... haha... Peace!

Time for a change.

2007-01-15T16:39:00.000-08:00

Happy MLK Holiday!

This is my 150th post!

So today my friend Keith and I went to lunch and a movie. It was his birthday a couple of weeks ago and we celebrated accordingly. We went to Chipotle for lunch and then decided to see Stomp the Yard... I know some of you are asking why? Well there was really nothing good playing at the Plaza. Seriously! And Keith, another friend Justin, and I have a pact that we will see all the dance movies together when no one else wants to go with us.. Well Justin was sick today!

Let me tell you that I haven't laughed so hard at how horrible the acting is... But, the dancing was amazing! It kind of made me wish I could dance like that... kind of...

Dance movies are kind of my guily pleasure...

Other guily pleasures: (not in any order)
- Extreme home makeover
- Brothers and Sisters (the TV show.. not my brother and sister)
- Grey's Anatomy
- Beyonce
- SOME chick flicks
- The food Network
There are some more.. I just can't think of them at this moment

What are your guilty pleasures?

Peace!

Do I live in Riverside or Big Bear?

2007-01-14T20:26:00.000-08:00

this morning 27.. When I walked to church.. umm I would guess in the 40's... When I went to workout this afternoon... 53... Some people ask what is wrong with this.. I live in Riverside, CA... It usually isn't this cold in R Side..

Can I tell you how much I love my church! I'm going to anyways! Small group was amazing on Friday, People are starting to open up and it is awesome to hear people's stories! Today was amazing too! Carlos did an amazing job with music and Nathan did a awesome job with the message. I don't know why I never thought of my strengths in the way that he brought it up today. He has been speaking about leadership for the past two weeks and today was one of those messages that you have heard but it's something you totally needed to hear in a different way to make it click. Alright, I'm out. I totally loss where I was going with this blog other then church was awesome... I guess the lesson learned with this blog is don't blog midway and put it down to go run some errands... Peace!

Is hell really freezing over?

2007-01-12T16:58:00.000-08:00

So a couple of days ago it was in the 80's and this morning it snowed! Seriously! I saw it with my own eyes... Snow in Riverside... I should really say it "attempted" to snow.. You could see it, but it would melt once it hit the ground, so nothing was covered...Oh and tonight it is suppose to be like 30 degrees! 30 in Riverside! Umm, I wonder how cold it is going to be at Pondo tonight? It's going to be so cold I don't even want to think about it! Well got to get ready for small group I don't think I could show up in sweats and faux Ugg's on!

Shopping list for Target tonight!
-More sweat pants!
-a space heater... Heater in the apt. is not working very well.
- Clorox Bleach Spray
- Laundry Detergent

Peace!

I love paula!

2007-01-06T17:58:00.000-08:00

If you watch Food Network you know Paula Deen! She has some of the best food I think! Mainly because it has all of the unhealthy things in it that I can't have! But she also has some (just a few) healthy recipes! Here is to Paula!

I found the best healthy cookie for you!
If you love peanut butter cookies, and you are a little of a health nut, you will love these cookies!
All you need in Peanut butter, Splenda, an egg, and some vanilla!
Go to food network and search magical peanut butter cookies.
Paula never ceases to amaze me!

Where did all the bloggers go?

2007-01-02T09:18:00.000-08:00

I feel that we have lost some of the bloggers we had in 2005 and 2006 to MySpace... What happen to:
Heather Nunn
Britany Anderson
Aaron LeBrun
Jeff and Stacey
And Some others...

I guess we will never know! Well I could leave them a comment on MySpace! haha

Goodbye 2006

2007-01-01T19:40:00.000-08:00

1.) Where did you ring in 2006?
In Sand Diego.. Went and saw the Chargers get smoked... It rianed during the whole game...

2.) What was your status by Valentine’s Day?
Very much single!

3.) Were you in school (anytime this year)?
Yes

4.) How did you earn your keep?
RA in Smith Hall and Intern in Undergrad Admissions... THen I graduated and now I am a Graduate Assistant in Campus Activities.

5.) Did you ever have to go to the hospital?
Nope! Praise the Lord!

6.) Did you encounter the police?
Not this year!

7.) Where did you go on vacation?
I graduated. I didn't get to go anywhere!

8.) What did you purchase that was over $500?
Umm Car Payments.. Well close to 500.. I Purchased Payments and Bills! Wooo!

9.) Did you know anybody who got married?
Yup. Most of my friend I graduated with! Except me...

10.) Did you know anybody who passed away?
Yes, too many people this year.

11.) Have you run into anybody you graduated high school with?
I'm at my parents house right now... So of course!

12.) Did you move anywhere?
Well From the dorms, to a trailor, to a studio Apt.

13.) What sporting events did you go to?
Pro: none

14.) What concerts did you go to?
None... I'm poor!

15.) Are you registered to vote?
Yes

16.) If so, did you do your patriotic duty on Nov. 7?
Nope. I am a bad citizen.

17.) Where do you live now?
Riverside, CA

18.) Describe your birthday.
I went to Dinner with Dave and Bethany... Then drove home for a dentist Appt. the next day.

19.) What’s the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2006?
Meet my weight goal.. oh wait.. didn't do that...Haha... call a travel trailor my home for 4 months! haha

20.) What is one thing you regretted this year?
Nothing!

21.) What’s something you learned about yourself?
I like to be in control and when I let go it makes life so much better and worth living! I have needs and I tend to fulfill them the wrong way... I learned that I was very unhealthy! I'm working on that one still!

22.) Any new additions to your family?
Not this year!

23.) What was your best month?
All of them were pretty good. They all had there lows and Highs!

24.) For what pop culture landmarks will you remember 2006?
Brit and K-Fed's Divorce.. Man I thought they were really going to make it! haha j/k

25.) How would you rate this year with a scale from 1 (crappy) to 10 (excellent)?
I think a 9!

I want to go home!

2006-12-28T15:05:00.000-08:00

Is home where your heart is or where your family is? If it is where my family is, then I am Screwed! My family lives in Brawley. This valley is something else, let me tell you! It's a great place to visit for a day or two, but not for two weeks. I feel like when I visit my life stops and I come to a stand still in everything! I don't want to do anything, I usually sit around because there is nothing to do, or I eat... and eat... and eat... I have been working out (except for today), but I feel like I don't have any energy. Oh and church is another story... I'm so glad I live in Riverside...

So a guy just came up to me and told me of a website that will search for free wifi spots for you.. You can actually download their program on to your computor and use it to find wifi spots near you while off line.. BUT it will cost 24.95 a year AND it requires Windows XP... Mac Haters! Oh the Web Site is www.jiwire.com... you can use it while online for free and it doesn't discriminate while online!
P.S. I couldn't find any wifi networks where I will be this summer in Southeast Asia. Oh Well!

Christmas was good! I got this Kick A** microwave that is like a 3 in one thing.. it's freaken amazing. It can Bake, Grill, and microwave out of it.. It's even got a convection oven built inside.. I'm excited to use it. And my parents got me real (real meaning really expensive) pots and pans.. I'm excited about using those too! I'll have to invite those of you who read this over to my box of an appartment to have dinner (No more then 4 people at a time, I said it's small!)

Did I say I was ready to go back to Riverside? Well I am

I am at a coffee shop in Brawley.. It's nice and they have free wifi.. Ok I am out.. I need to do homework.. I will write later! and post pics of christmas... Peace!

I only got ont thing to say...

2006-12-14T20:12:00.000-08:00

I hate Statistics!

Poor Dogs

2006-12-05T17:59:00.000-08:00

I was going through my iPhoto and found these pictures.. I think I was going to post earlier about it, but I forgot... My parents torture their Dogs!

A Little Ramble

2006-12-03T22:24:00.000-08:00

Lately I feel like I have been around so many people but have felt completely lonely. This is not the first time. Now don’t you worry, I’m not suicidal or anything! I told a friend and he asked if I was ok… I had to affirm that I’m ok… I’m just lonely… I get tired of taking the initiative of calling people to hang out… Enough with that…

I had coffee with my mentor tonight. I can not tell you how much I look up to him and how much I miss hanging out with him… He is probably one of the only people that can see right through me and has no problem calling me out. I love it!

Ok, I got to get going. I have so much homework… Got to get it done!

Anybody know if anyone that has one of these in the year of 1991, 1985, or 1987? My mom collects them and these are the only years she is missing… She has 50 of them and I cleaned them during thanksgiving… and hour and a half of cleaning Holly Bells! Thank God for TarnX!

My weekly cry

2006-11-26T20:04:00.000-08:00

I get emotional every time I see this show! I don't know what it is.. This week has a huge family.. 9 Kids and a mom... I'm thankful for my family!

I need an attitude change!

2006-11-20T21:31:00.000-08:00

I was told today that it seems like I don't like my job... Do I complain about it? No... Am I not nice? Well sometimes I can be a bit bitchy, but who isn't?... I'm really confused. I told the person I love my job... I guess I need to really act like I do! I mean at times it can get stressful, especially when your boss leaves to get married and you feel totally incompetent to do her job and you are her assistant! I don't know... I hope I haven't come off that I don't like my job and that I don't like the people I work with because in all reality I love them! They are fun to work with and all of them have different personalities... I don't know, it's funny the other intern and I just completed an interview for a possition in the department and we told the person that we function like a family and a team... We are all pretty close and the we love our jobs, because they are totally different from anything we have done... and the next week you are being told that people feel the total opposite... I don't know I'm a little upset. I'm such a people pleaser that this is bothering me a little... Okay, I should get going.. I have to read for class.. I know I haven't blogged in awhile, but I will try to get back into the swing of things...

Need to get something off my chest!

2006-10-25T20:16:00.000-07:00

So one thing I can't stand more then bad breath is poor sports. I can't stand how some people are poor losers! It really pisses me off! You can be upset because you may have lost, but DO NOT single someone or a small group of people out and blame your teams loss on them! No more bitterness! Let's be adults here and get freaken over it... Most of you guys out there are on leadership, ACT LIKE IT! It's flag football, it's not the end of the world!

I'm writting in observance of all the flag football games I watched today. I'm not pointing one person out, but if you do feel convicted... then good! If you're going to lose, be a good loser! Not a poor sport!

I'm out! Peace!

Ode to Brother!

2006-10-23T11:51:00.000-07:00

ere is my brother... (Here is your shout out Robin!)... He is my twin...We are a like, but sometimes have nothing in common... He is nice, sometimes! He tends to make everything a competition, which pisses me off A LOT (example: me lossing weight became a competition between us!)! I miss him and wish I had enough money to fly out there or fly him back home... I guess I'll see him in December! Love you brother!

Just one of those days.

2006-10-23T09:11:00.000-07:00

It's one of those days where I don't feeling like doing a darn thing! I'm still in my workout clothes laying on the floor watching CMT and blogging and I have 25 mins to get ready for work! I'm thinking about not going in today... I will though. We have a meeting at 10 and I have to be there.. I'm going to see if I can get the rest of the day off to work on homework and get caught up on laundry.
On a side note... I hate the new secret commercials.. They are so lame!
Oh I went grocery shopping yesterday at TJ's and since it was 93 degress outside I thought I would bring Fall to my apt. So I bought some really good Pumpkin Butter and Spiced Cider. It felt like fall this morning for Breakfast.

Ok I got to get ready for work.. I'll blog more later. Peace.

LOST

2006-10-12T09:27:00.000-07:00

I got up this morning and got all caught up on LOST! well atleast for this season.. I know it has only been on for two weeks, but I missed both of those weeks! So I went to ABC.com and watched them online for free... It's kind of like tivo! except I don't have to record it! or pay for it! It's going to be an exciting season! Well I thought I would let eveyone know that LOST is amazing and if there is someone who doesn't watch it... where have they been? They are really missing out!

On another note... It smells like Cat piss, Butt, and Baking Choclate outside.. I have my window open and the smell is coming into my apt. Every time am standing at my door unlocking it, I can smell it.. I'm wondering if it is the small wood chip things my neighbout put down in her garden.. Because it stinks! Alright, I got to get going.. I have readin to do before class tonight.. peace!

2006-10-11T19:24:00.000-07:00

Yahoo Commercial

This is only part of the commercial, but seriously made me laugh out loud!

Picture wish list!

2006-10-11T14:43:00.000-07:00

So the Holiday's are coming up (My Birthday is one of them.. It's a holiday right?) and I know my parents are going to be aksing me what I want... Hopefully... SO to make it easy on them, I thought I would post my wish list (with pictures) on my blog. You know, since they read it and everything.

Here are my parents! aren't they cute?

These items are in no particular order....
1. New work out shoes...
What I would perfer: New Balance M891WG

2. A New Pair of Sandals...
What I would perfer: Brown Rainbow Sandals

3. A Microwave/Toaster oven. They sell it at Walmart!
What I would perfer: Sharp R-55TS

4. Clothes that fit... you may want to hold up on this one..
What I would perfer: Gift Cards

5. A membership to a weight loss clinic... I'm stuck where I am at and would like to meet my goal (30 more pounds)... Maybe I just need to work harder. You guys can say no to this one...
But I found one in Riverside and they have a website www.lindora.com
6. Good cookware... Not the crapy stuff I bought.. but some nice stuff...

And here are somethings that I could only wish to have... One of them would be enough, not all three! haha.. 2 hybrids and a jeep!

The Highlight of my day

2006-10-06T12:39:00.000-07:00

One of our student workers is out of town, so I have to cover the front desk of the game room. Well We have two international students playing bumper pool right now, one is French and the other is German... It is the most intense game of bumper pool ever! Pool sticks flying, yelling in english, pounding their hands on the table in frusteration, Intense!!!! The funniest part was when the german student yelled "You are idiot! That was good shot!" funny stuff... I like when the chinesse international students are in here.. they are quiet...

Update... The German student just said, "No wonder no one like the french, you are no good" wow! bitter!

It's been awhile..

2006-10-04T08:40:00.000-07:00

Sorry for such a delay in the post. I have been super busy! and stressed! and a little down on myself...

School has been kicking my butt for the past couple of weeks. I think I am going to quit... haha j/k mom and dad.. I know you guys are reading this! No I'm not really going to quit, but it has been hard this past couple of weeks... Last week my partner and I rocked a presentation on Residence life and this week I rocked a chapter presentation. I have learned that no matter what age we are, we all still love to play learning games! Yeaterday we played Stratgeic planning and financing (that was the chapter I covered) Jeopardy. they loved it and my professer was one of the most competitive players in the game. I have class on thrusday and I have to read over sixty pages worth of journals before class starts... And I haven't started! It's going to be a long night!

Okay I was going to blog more, but I just saw what time it is! 8:42 and I have to be in at 9:30! welp see you gus later!

I'm in Jeep Heaven!

2006-09-24T08:42:00.000-07:00

My very first car I could call my own was a '99 Jeep Wrangler Sport. I kind of regret getting rid of it. I think it is because I now have car payments and all that stuff. Well Jeep just came out with a new wrangler and it was love at first sight! Some day I will have another jeep, some day!

Here is a pic of it... Four doors!

I'm not at young as I used to be!

2006-09-23T15:33:00.000-07:00

On Tuesday's, Thursday's, Friday's I have a hard time coming back form class or small group and staying in my apt. So I usually call up some friends and go hang out with them. Last night wasn't any different. I called up my friend Justin and he has duty this weekend, so he was in his Dorm all day and night! I thought I would be nice and keep him company. at around 12 we decide that we would play a quick game of Risk with a couple of guys on his hall. Quick meaning probably an hour and a half... Three and a half hours later, he finally finish... I can't stay up that late anymore.. I'm not as young as I used to be. The guys on his hall are freshman and they can easily pull an all nighter and still have energy.. I don't and can't!
It is fun getting to know some of the freshman guys, but I'm tired now! Peace!

Comforting

2006-09-22T00:35:00.000-07:00

So have you ever had one of those experiences where it feels like God just whispered into your ear, "This is why I have you here doing what you are doing" and everything at that moment seems ok. Well I had one of those last Tuesday! Of course not audible, but anyways... I have been struggling with my role as an assistant small group leader and what that pertains. I know it sounds kind of weird, even I don't quite understand what I'm struggling with. BUT I think it has to do with me being very selfish... Anyways, I was talking to someone about a student at CBU that died this past weekend, due to a tragic motorcycle accident and how it has been affecting our campus and all that stuff. Well she goes on to tell me about lossing one of her bestfriends to suicide, because he didn't know how to properly cope with his struggles. and right then it hit me... her story spoke to me and I seriously almost started crying, I wish so much that someone could of been there that knew what he was going through...Then and there I knew that God has me exactly where he wants me... Well It's almost 1 so I'm going to go read and head to bed... I'll post some more later.. Peace!

My Favoritest!

2006-09-15T16:54:00.000-07:00

I love when I have good, deep conversations with people! It fills me and makes me feel like I have done well, like the day could be complete because I feel good. I know that is kind of selfish, but thats the way I feel sometimes. I just got my haircut and had a really good conversation with my new stylist. I love sharing experiences with people and being able to share a common connection of life. I guess all I have to say is that really good conversations give me an extra boost! Well Thats all that I wanted to share. I know it's not a long one, oh well. I hope everyone has a good weekend, whether you stay home, go to the beach, or travel, be safe! Love you guys! Untill next time, Peace...

It make my day every time I see it!

2006-09-13T16:33:00.000-07:00

So this picture puts a smile on my face and I chuckle inside every time I see it.. I hope all you Pondo people enjoy it as much as I do..

The weeekly wrap.

2006-09-10T11:15:00.000-07:00

Man this week has been crazy, not only have they had sushi in the cafe... But they are not serving organic food! Yep, CBU is serving Fashion food! I love it!
This week was filled with starting class, work, small group leadership meeting (that lasted 4 hours!), and a sonic flood concert.
I'm not gonna lie, it's really hard to get back into the swing of things.. I mean I have graduated and now having to go back to school is a little weird. Don't get me wrong, I love my classes (well I have only been to each of them once), but it's like being a freshman all over again, having to meet new people, finding the ins and outs of a new school, and so on... I guess it is just a bit over whelming, but I got to get used to it! So is life, right? I'm really excited about what I will be learning and how I can apply it to my work setting right now, but the work load is a little intimidating, especially since I can be some-what of a procrastinator, I guess it is time for a change of old habits and get my ass into gear.
Work has been a bit draining; I like structure and things to be the same. I like to have daily projects that I can work on.. And right now it doesn't seem that way. I know it has been soo busy with the sonic flood and everything, but I feel like I am not being used to the best of my abilities. I don't feel like I have accomplished anything when the day ends. I like looking back on the day to see what I have accomplished and I can say that it hasn't been a whole lot... I'm excited for the week to come because we get to sit down and talk about what our schedule will look like and when I will work and all that stuff.. These 20 hours I'm working look more like 30 or 40 hours, so it will be good to lay down a schedule and hopefully my boss will give me a list of things that need to be accomplished so I can work on that...
I'm going to enjoy being an assistant small group leader this year. For so long I have wanted to get involved in church and I couldn't find the right place and where I would be interested in spending my time. It seems like God has just opened the doors for me to serve others and Him. I'm totally excited about it... So the group that I'm in met at our coordinators house (which is also my mentor) this past Friday to do corrections to the curriculum that we will be going through and to share about our needs and what we would like to see ourselves doing in the group. What was supposed to be dinner and group time for two hours, ended to be a four-hour ordeal! We pretty much ended up rewriting our curriculum (Not really). It was intense! But so much fun! We did get to share and input a lot of ideas that as a group we were having.
Where do I start? Saturday was a long day! From 8AM - 11:30PM! We helped set up and tear down... It was long... but it was good... I'm not gonna lie, I'm not a big sonic flood fan, but it was all right! Enough said about that!
I'm out.. I'm done typing.. I hope everyone is doing well! I hope that the Ashdowns are having an amazing first year anniversary today! Welp, see you guys later! Peace

Praise the Lord!

2006-09-06T13:02:00.000-07:00

CBU hired a sushi chef! And my stomach is filled with wonderful sushi! I wonder if this will be an everday thing or once a week? What ever it is I'm all over it! haha

Word of encouragement!

2006-09-06T09:03:00.000-07:00

Good luck to all the kiddies going back to school at CBU, I hope you all have a wonderful day! suckers hahaha!

Back to school!

2006-09-06T00:29:00.000-07:00

So today I felt like a fresman all over again. I started my grad classes at APU and what an experience! I'm going to really like the program. Now if the stwp from undgrad to grad life can be easy... It's so weird to go to another school and try to find your way around.. alright, I'm tired... People keep asking me what is my secret to loosing weight... I don't get it... There is no secret, you just have to disciplined and focused.. Maybe that will be my next post... maybe..

Got to get something off my chest..

2006-09-04T08:13:00.000-07:00

So I'm going to vent right now.. I know I talked about church yesterday, but that was before friends and I got together for lunch.. During lunch people started asking about what they thought of the sermon and there were a couple of people who got really offended that he was pushing small groups.. They thought that was what all his sermon was about. Well it wasn't!

There was so much more to what he was saying. He wasn't saying that you had to join a sandals small group! He was pushing all of us to have authetic realationships outside of the church building (or tent). He was challenging the body to build accountability and mentoring relationships with other believers, to build a community of believers outside the bigger body. Now an easy way to do all this is to join a small group. He wasn't saying you had to join a sandals small group.

Alright I'm done and I got to get ready to drive to APU to registar for classes. Sorry for the venting I had to get it off my chest. and sorry for the typo's, I didn't spell check. I hope everyone has a good day.. Peace!

P.S. CBU is not a church, don't make it yours!

Being Intentional

2006-09-03T11:06:00.000-07:00

I feel like this word has been thrown around so much especially around my work place and friends.. What does it really mean to be an intentional person? Does it mean that we are suppose to do things in intent or be determined to act a certain way (which in theory is the same)? When we tell people to be intentional are they really? or are they being fake? I think that most people are being intentionally fake.. I'm not gonna lie, I feel that people put on a mask and try to mask everything over, there feelings, hurts, needs, all for the sake of intentionallity... Are they being intentional for there own glory or fame (Like getting another jewel on their crown :-) )? Or are they being intentional with the thought of helping others and possibly furthering His kingdom? Instead of being intentional, why don't we be real and authentic? This is all rooting from my observations of this past week. I'm going to stop there.. I don't want to get fired hahaha...

Pastor Neal spoke today about small groups and how we need to be involved in developing intentional relationships and all that stuff, don't get me wrong it was a really good sermon! I loved it! One thing he said at the end was, "If you are not having an intentional Relational Experience then you are a watcher of the Kingdom, not a member of it." It pretting much hit home for me.

Well I got to get some work done around this Apt. It's a mess and when things are not organized in my apt. I think it reflexs my life.. So I'm gonna go clean. Peace!

The Anniversary

2006-09-01T23:45:00.000-07:00

Well it's coming up to my two year anniversary of having a blog... WOW... I can't believe time went by so fast!
I'm not going to lie, I'm totally tired from orientation retreat... But it was soo awesome! The speakers, the band, four or five people made first time deisisons, it was awesome!
But it's time to come back down to the real world and have to live the real life. I don't like growing up, having to pay rent and credit card bills.. I've finally come to the conclusion that credit cards are of the devil and I have s spending habbit that I need to control. I need to make myself a budget and stick to it! I think I will start tomorrow! because only being able to pay half of my credit card bill and my car payment (thank God for loving parents that are willing to help me out) is making me feel irresponsible and stressed... well i got to get to bed.. I'm tired.. I'm out! Peace!

Top ten good things about today!

2006-08-29T22:07:00.000-07:00

In no particular order.
1. I got accepted to Grad School yay APU
2. I didn't have to move in or check in any freshman today for orientation
3. Tomorrow we leave for orientation retreat and I'm staff... Which means I don't sleep in a cabin with all the students.. Praise Jesus!
4. I get to experience the room of junk food tomorrow.. I can't wait.. mmmmm...
5. My new guilty pleasure is vegi corn dogs from Trader Joe's... well I don't feel gulilty for eatting them because they are a lot better then eatting the actual thing.
6. I got Cable today!!!
7. Which also mean I got internet today too!!!
8. I got up today thinking it was sunday, I was excited and then let down when I realized it was tuesday!
9. I'm learning that I'm a lot more patient then I was last year.
10. I came home to a clean home because I took out my stress and agression on my kitchen and living room last night.. Very relaxing..

Ok, I got to go.. I stink and I need to sleep for a very long time. Good night everyone and I won't post till I get back from Orientation retreat... Which means friday.. Welp see ya! Peace

Why didn't I know about this crap earlier in life!

2006-08-22T21:08:00.000-07:00

I'm totally amazed at what we are studying for student leadership training. I seriously think I'm getting more out of it then some of the student leaders are.. So we are learning about our strengths, I know it sounds so childish, but I am learning so much more about who I am and why I function the way I do every single time we have Strengths classes. Today we watched short nooma-ish movies about developing our strengths (These Videos were a mimic of Nooma's, except the speaker is british), They are called "Trombone Player Wanted".. They were made for companies and business people, but they can be applied to almost anyone. The Video's are amazing and made me think of the decisions that I have made (not out of my own pleasure but out of pleasing others) in the past and how I live my life now. Basically I have came to the conclusion that I obtained my business degree because I wanted to please my Dad, now I really don't want anything to do with it. Praise God that my relationship with my Dad has changed and I am able to talk to him as a friend and not just a father, because I probably would of went to Grad School to get my MBA and been stuck at something a actually really don't like doing, but I know how to do.

Now I want to learn about how I can properly use my strengths everyday to feel accomplished, strong, and pleased with my work. I want to know how I can properly use them in my office so we will have a well rounded staff and group.

I know know that I don't have slight OCD, I just need structure and a routine and when that routine is broken it's a little bit of a downer... Well I'm done typing.. By the way my top 5 stengths are Harmony, Discipline, Communication, Developer, and Restorative. Welp, got to go, hope all is well... PEACE!

The New Place

2006-08-19T16:02:00.000-07:00

So here is the new place. It is only a studio, but it is soooo much better then the trailor!!!!

The Outside

The Porch

Here is what you see when you first walk in

Part of my Bath

Here is the other part of my bath

Here is my very small living/dining/bedroom

Oh how much I love my LoveSac... Not kidding you, it is probably the most comfortable thing EVER!

2006-08-19T15:25:00.000-07:00

My Dining Room

Nikki's Painting in my kitchen

The Rest of the Kitchen

My Bed

I hope you guys enjoyed a tour of my new place.. I'm done with blogging.. Peace!

Ode to the Blogging Ho's

2006-08-19T09:13:00.000-07:00

You know who you are! I'm gulty of it sometimes too... Those of you who read others blogs then don't bother to leave a comment, EVER!! I ran in to one the other day! I didn't call this person out but should of. They came up to me and said congratualtions on the new job and persisted to tell me that they found out because of my blog. I thought to myself, "Self, why do people read my blog and not leave comments? I mean if they were to leave a comment then I could put them on my friends list and we could be best blog friends".. So those of you who I know personally that read this and are not on my friens list just leave a comment so we can be blog friends and my inner self can have peace. Well not really, but it would be fun, kind of!
So back to friends list... When you are changing your template.. Save your Friends Template! Please! and don't ever push republish everything, because somehow that erases all of your friends too.. I don't know how.. But I do know I spent an hour and a half on this damn thing to get my friends list back and to add some people! Well I am out.. those pics I promised are coming soon, I just need to clean my Apt. So I hope eveyone is doing well and I'm out! Peace!

2006-08-18T15:34:00.000-07:00

SO I have this song stuck in my head and I can't get it out! It has seriously been stuck in there since monday (off and on) I think it is called London Bridge by Firgie (sp?) from the Black Eyed Peas. Yeah I saw the video like 10 times (not exagerating) when I was at home on Monday, The TV was stuck on MTV and VH1 because I don't have cable yet and I felt like I was missing a little music culture because of my lack of cableness (I'm making up words now).
I started my new job and have been here in CAB for almost 3 weeks. It's great! I do feel like I am not being used to my capacity at times, which scares me. I hope and pray I don't become complacent in what I do, that this possition would keep me on my feet, always thinking, and focused on Him and not on myself.
My apartment is finally finished and pictures will be coming maybe tomorrow, If I can find time to blog some more. I do miss blogging and have missed other people bloggin too... What happen to everyone? Has everyone moved to MySpace to communicate? I hope not, I miss hearing about people's lives!
Well I gotta get going.. I hope everyoen is doing well! Peace!

P.S.

2006-07-22T11:14:00.000-07:00

I forgot. I'm at Panera and the girl at the counter gave me my morning glory bagel with hazelnut cream chesse and coffee for free! Someone has a crush on Kyle! hahah.. Later guys!

Sorry for the delay!

2006-07-22T10:52:00.000-07:00

Alright, I apologise for the long delay! I have been meaning to post for some time now, but haven't had time.

I got a job! I'm really excited! I am working in Campus Activities at CBU as a Grad. Assistant. I am looking forward to the switch of departments and trying something new! With the job comes discounted rent on campus, so I will be moving out of the trailor next week (Praise Jesus!) and moving into a studio at CBU. For all of you CBU people, I will be living in Rose Gardens. For all of you who don't know what Rose Gardens is, it's a Retirement community that CBU owns. Yep, I'll be living with the old people! But, there is no old people living by me, they have all been moved forward and I live by all of the graduate assistants. Rose Gardens is so nice! I went over there on tuesday and I got to see my studio (which is pretty big) and walked around their LARGE Campus. SOOO Nice! Now I need to find how the hell I'm going to afford to furnish my appartment.. Maybe I'll find a way to pull money out of my ass, I'll work on that! haha.

Well life is good. Kind of stressful because of switching jobs, moving, and all that fun stuff! I'll post pictures of my new place when I have it all ready! alright, I'm gonna get going. I hope everyone is doing well and summer has been treating you well. Peace

I got a job!

2006-07-08T18:46:00.000-07:00

I got a job... at CBU.. I'll post later

Independence Day

2006-07-04T17:54:00.000-07:00

Well Happy 4th of July to you all!
I am at Pondo right now celebrating with all those who don't have the day off. It has been a really good day, I got to talk to Shan for a little while on the phone and Jasen and Amanda are here! It's so good to see them...
I'm doing well... I don't have a job yet... I interviewed for two at Cal Baptist, but didn't get any of them. I am totally not bummed at all, God totally prepaired my heart for the let down. I know that what ever I am doing this coming fall will be what He wants me to do for the time being. So if any of you know of any jobs open, let me know.
I have a desire to work with college students and am turning in my resume and filling out applications to places where I would be able to interact with them. So far I still have one more chance at CBU, an Application in at APU, and a resume in at SDCC.. SO maybe one of them will work out, but I am keeping my eyes open to anything that comes my way, so once again, if you guys know anyone or anything, let me know! All right, I am going to get going.. I hope everyone has had a good 4th of July and hopefully I will get to see some of you soon! take care!

Long time, no Blog..

2006-06-15T12:49:00.000-07:00

So I'm sorry I haven't posted in awhile I have been super busy and a little stressed out. I had an interview today and it went very well.. I really hope I get the job so you guys can be praying for that! ok, I got to go back to work. I will keep you guys posted about my life.

Meet my friends!

2006-05-17T09:31:00.000-07:00

I want you guys to meet the "guard" dogs Lucy and Arthor.. Don't worry they suck at their job. They have a loud bark and their bites have been replaced with tons of licks. These are just the few animals that my Landlords have, but I think I like Lucy and Arthor best, second best are the horses, and on the lowest of the list are the Chiwawa's (SP?)! I hate those dogs, they are so loud! Louder then the exotic birds!

Life of a college grad!

2006-05-16T17:11:00.000-07:00

The Bedroom

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The Living/Dining room!

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The Kitchen!

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The Fridge (that has an emotional problem and works sometimes and doesn't) and behind the door is my bathroom (It's Private)!

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My Entertainment Center! It's the Shit! Or maybe just a piece of (fill in the blank)... The 60 inch plasma is coming in a week.

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So there it is, my home... It's freaken cheap rent and I live by myself, which has it's ups and downs.. Welp.. Peace!

HOME SWEET HOME!

2006-05-16T16:01:00.000-07:00

Well this is what you all have been waiting for (I know) my trailer and all it's glory!

Oh Alissa and Nikki can't beat my porch!

Post-Grad Trailer Trash!

2006-05-04T20:23:00.000-07:00

PIctures will be coming of my humblle abode. Well I haven't moved in yet, but I did go by to see it this afternoon and it was a wreck. My tenants (I should really just call them my adopted parents) hadn't cleaned it, so I walked into a trailer that had dog hair everywhere, with poop on a news paper... I knew right that second that she probably didn't want me seeing it that way.. Well I told her I was coming on Thursday! so I spent about two hours there cleaning my porch (which is almost bigger then the trailer) and deep cleaning the floor from the nasty stuff that was on them. Then I left because I didn't know what to do... So I give them a call tonight and they are moving all their stuff out and hooking up water to it! SO my trailer will be nice and liveable by monday! I'm excited! Only thing that worries me is the lack of closet space, I have this hobby of collecting clothes (not ever getting rid of any) so it will be interesting trying to fit all my clothes in their.

Today was graduation practice and man was it interesting, Good thing I get to sit by some friends that have the same major as I do, because if they put us in alphabetical order, I wouldn't enjoy it one bit! I offically feel graduated, I got my Alumni license plate cove!!! man I can't wait to put that on!!!! Well in all truthfullness, it probably will go on sometime in the near future. Well I'm going to be social and watch the rest of the Lakers game, even though I hate basket ball. welp see ya later.. Peace

Stick a fork in me, I am done!

2006-05-03T12:38:00.000-07:00

The last semester of my undergraduate experience is done! I'm so excited! Oh and the best part is that I passed all my classes, Praise God! So now all I have to do is check all my residents out of their rooms and I'm done with school.. Alright, I'm out.. got to get back to work.. Peace!

2006-04-30T14:12:00.000-07:00

Everything seems to be falling into place right now with my life, well at least short term. I still have my trailor and it will be ready for me to move into by wednesday. I found out that Rent is going to be $150 a month (Praise Jesus) so I will actually be start saving money! I have a job till June, during that time I will hopefully be interviewing for a permanent possition as a admissions counselor at CBU. I picked up applications at Azusa Pacific and Biola too. So I figure I will be doing what I love (right now) no matter what! So you guys can be praying about where God wants me during this time and the journey of life.

I went shopping this weekend and got an amazing deal! I went to Costa Mesa, to the Lab, and went into Buffalo Exchange just to see if they had anything. And this is where I am going to pause and say that at this moment I love being a bigger guy because you find some of the best deals at Buffalo Exchange IF you are a bigger guy, mainly because everyone in Orange County weighs close to nothing... Well I go to the jeans section and start looking and find a pair of Diesel jeans, New! with the Tags still on them! for dirt cheap! so I bought them. Yeah Kyle got like 75% off of a $200 pair of new diesel jeans. At least I was excited! So was Ross and Justin.. well they might have been more jealous then excited.

I went to church today and we had our commissioning service for ISP (Inernational Service Project, basically missions trips) today and it was amazing. What other church can say that 25% of the people attending are going on a journey to experience God's global purpose this summer. I'm not going to lie, I was a little jealous that I'm not going to serve over seas this summer, but I know that God has a plan and a reason for me being in Riverside this summer, so I'm a little excited about that. I started crying during the service because a team going to Rwanda shared a video of what they will be doing and who they will be working with. Some of the groups going to Rwanda will be working with Hillsong Church and their campaign of 100 days of Hope, while the other groups will be working with Saddleback Church and the government of Rwanda in many different ways. It's amazing! alright I got to go work out.. Peace!

12 days in counting! I think?

2006-04-24T21:06:00.000-07:00

I am graduating... I have to remind myself... Another part of my life is ending and one is going to begin. I'm scared, I'm ready to move on, but I'm affraid to take the next step. This step that is uncertain, I know that it is out there, but I can't see it. And thats what scares me, I can't see it... I have been praying about it, a lot!

So today was our banquet for leadership at school and we all got recognition, it was fun... Our RD gave us each different awards and I got the Wisenhiemer award.. I mean he could of just said I was blunt and sarcastic (or just a real big A$% Hole), he didn't have to use some big word that I had to go and look up! what ever, I'm over it.

Oh for those of you who didn't know.. I'm graduating and it scares me! oh and if you want to go attend, then to bad! haha j/k... But it is on May 6 at 9AM on the front lawn of CBU...

So I have this mentor guy and he is really cool... I love meeting with him... He knows me, He makes me think, and he knows where I am coming from...

Alright, I think I am spent... I'm going to go journal about more personal things. Later!

BFFA! AMEN!

2006-04-17T23:24:00.000-07:00

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Originally uploaded by desertratkyle.

To a very special friend! Heather Freaken Nunn! I love this picture... for many reasons!

If you don't know heather, she is the girl on the right...This picture makes me laugh everytime... I think I am going to go pee my pants right now!

I stole this from the pondo website.. sorry pondo!

It reminds me of the times when Heather and I would scoop ice cream together and sing songs like, "Like a virgin" and Dan would walk in and ask if Heather was cussing again... See Heather, everyone knew you were a cusser! and then we would talk about how Dad used to beat us and our times back in the 70's when all we did was get high!

Oh and don't forget about the anti-christ living inside of Heather.. OCP heather, OCP!!!!

But what this pictures really reminds we of is our first year when there was SO much "spiritual warfare" going on at camp that people couldn't sleep... good thing Kaleb invented the demon dance! hahah.. ok got to go..

Nikki ain't the only one now!

2006-04-02T15:18:00.000-07:00

I feel like a huge burden has been lifted off of me.. I finally got everything figured out with where I am going to live next year, and it looks promsing! haha.. So this older couple from my church offered me practically free housing till January! After January I will move into their small detached house (house.. I really mean studio)... So my temp housing till January is a travel trailor... YEP! I'M GONNA BE TRAILOR TRASH... Nikki, you aren't alone in this one anymore.. One of the Perks of living in the trailor is that is has cable t.v, air conditioning, and last but not least.... A porch! I know Nikki, your jealous, aren't you! haha.. One bad thing is that the toilet and sink isn't hooked up, so I can't take a shower in there, I have to walk to the main house to use the facilities.

I am actually really excited! I think more excited that everything seems to be falling into place for the moment. Alright, back to doing homework.. Peace!

Hey Hey Hey...

2006-04-01T11:07:00.000-08:00

Guess what everyone!

Heather Nunn and I are getting married! and she is Pregnant!

APRIL FOOLS...hahah I crack myself up...

Sorry I haven't posted in awhile, I have been busy and extremly Lazy! let me tell you, Senioritous (sp?) has kicked in to gear and I don't fee like doing a damn thing!

So my life in the past month or so... Hmmm.. well, has been good. I haven't really done a whole lot other then work and school.. But I can tell you that I have been pretty diligent (sp?) in my "healthy eating", except for the past week.. I've been a little stressed and I'm a stress eater, so good thing I don't have chips or chocolate in my room! I'm still losing weight, 20 more pounds to lose before may 6th, I hope I can do it.. If not then that gets added on to the August goal.

Oh, I got to finally meet all of Nikki's family and they are some cool people.. I realized last week that I really miss Wess, even though I didn't get to see him a whole lot, but I did get to talk to him for a bit.

Alright, I'm going to go.. I have a ten page paper due this week and I need to start it.. Have a great month, if I don't post again.. Peace!

I'll be back!

2006-03-20T21:15:00.000-08:00

I know it's been awhile... I will post soon... I'm not dead and I am doing well..

Dogs and their owners!

2006-02-15T18:12:00.000-08:00

While I was walking down Mt. Rubidoux today I realized something. Dogs kind of resemble their owners or the other way around. Monday I saw a younger hippy guy, thin with long curly hair and a beard..Nikki you probably would of had a crush on him.. haha.. well he had two dog, but one resembled him.. It was tall, thinner, and had curly/kinky hair. To prove more of my point, This morning I walked by a dog that had huge hair! and then it's body was short fur (kind of weird, I know) and the owner had a fro like no other.. maybe she just had morning hair, The lady kind of resembled Janice, the lady that works in the same department I work in. Anyways going back to my point... So a few mins later I see an older guy that has more or less of a beer belly and a scrunched up face.. and he has a pug with him.. I'm not kidding you, they looked so much alike.. Man I hope my mom or dad don't start looking like Shitzus (sp?), or I may need to turn them in for some new parents.

Another praise Jesus incounter. I was getting ready for work today and I was feeling daring and tried on a pare of paints that I couldn't get into (if my life depended on it) in November, and they fit. So I wore them to work. I pat myself on the back for that.

It was good seeing Aaron, Brady, and Nikki today at the Ministry fair.. I hope that you guys got some good recruits.. I'll have my eyes open for prospective guy counselors or what not.

Alright, I got to do some laundry.. Peace

BLAH BLAH BLAH

2006-02-14T17:54:00.000-08:00

I'm not going to lie... I'm not a fan of Valentines day.
nuff said.

Best feeling right now.

2006-02-14T09:07:00.000-08:00

I'm kind of scepitcal about blogging about this, because last time I did I just went back to where I was. But I think this time it's different.
I'm the kind of person that usually beats myself up for the way I look and all that stuff. But yesterday I probably had the best feeling. I got ready for work and my slacks actually fit well and then I went to put on the belt that I was wearing and I put it on and it felt different. I was at the last hole (the whole where you should probably punch more holes in your belt. not the one where you need to add more). and then after work I got a pair of jeans out that I haven't work in like a week or two and they were baggy on my waist. I was shocked, so to applaud myself I ate a whole cake.. haha J/k..
This whole new years resolution really hasn't been just about dieting. It has been a changing of my life. I have learned how to count calories. I have learned about exercise. and the best thing is through this past month of all this, I have drawn closer to christ and have asked for help with struggles that I have in my life.

I want to give props to Nikki who checks up pn me sometimes and went to the gym with me the first time. I'm kind of afraid of going nex places especially gyms. I think everyone is looking at me and judging me. haha I know I'm weird.

So after church on sunday night I decided that every monday morning I was going to get up early and walk up mt. rubidoux and spend an hour up there in the word and talking to God. I did it yesterday and it was amazing. I had one of the best days yesterday. and the people who walk around Mt. Rubidoux are so nice, well a lot nicer then the people at the gym. haha.. I'm out. Peace.

I'm a Gangsta

2006-02-10T19:52:00.000-08:00

Not really, but I stole this from Jeff and thought it was freaken amaing.. Everyone should visit gizoogle.com.. I had Psalm 113 translated and it made me laugh, so I thought I would post it...

Psalms 113
1praise tha lord!
praise, o servants of tha lord,
praise tha name of tha lord!

2blessed be tha name of tha lord
from this time forth n forevermore!
3from tha ris'n of tha sun ta its sett'n,
the nizzle of tha lord is ta be praised!

4the lord is H-to-tha-izzigh above all nations,
and his glory above tha heavens!
5who is all like tha lord our god,
who is seated on H-to-tha-izzigh,
6who looks far down
on tha heavens n tha earth?
7he raises tha poor from tha dust
and lifts tha needy from tha ash heap,
8to makes tizzle sit wit princes,
wit tha princes of his people.
9he gives tha barren woman a home,
mak'n her tha joyous motha of children.
praise tha lord cuz I put gangsta rap on tha map!

And if anyone is in Riverside, PLEASE come visit me.. I have RA duty this weekend and I am stuck in the RA office friday night and saturday night form 7pm-11pm!

alright, I'm watching wheel of fortune, so everyone have a good weekend. Peace!

Who is like the LORD our God? Not me!

2006-02-10T00:00:00.001-08:00

Psalms 113
1Praise the LORD!
Praise, O servants of the LORD,
praise the name of the LORD!

2Blessed be the name of the LORD
from this time forth and forevermore!
3From the rising of the sun to its setting,
the name of the LORD is to be praised!

4The LORD is high above all nations,
and his glory above the heavens!
5Who is like the LORD our God,
who is seated on high,
6who looks far down
on the heavens and the earth?
7He raises the poor from the dust
and lifts the needy from the ash heap,
8to make them sit with princes,
with the princes of his people.
9He gives the barren woman a home,
making her the joyous mother of children.
Praise the LORD!

I'm thank the lord for giving me strength from day to day. I thank God for never giving up on me. I'm so glad God has put someone in my life that is challenging me to search and know God. Someone that understands me, not just the surface Kyle, but the real me. I thank God for accountability and sending someone to my life that will keep me accountable, which is something that has been lacking for a long long time.

Now if God can send someone to do my homework for me.. haha..

SO seek week has been all this week. For all you who are not a cal baptistian, it's our spiritual emphasis week, Meaning instead of having 2 chapels this week, WE HAVE THREE! yep, which makes us super spiritual! But really, seek week has been really good this semester. they have really made the week actually relevant to the title.

So on that note, I think my coffee high is coming down and I can actually go to sleep now. Peace

There is a snoop lurking around us.

2006-02-08T08:27:00.000-08:00

I have been confronted about my blog the past couple of days by many people.. One person has tried to ridicule me and belittle me by trying to make fun of me.. Man if she knew what it really said in here instead of just hear-say. But there is this other person that first confronted me about the stuff I write.. and I think it is time to call this person out... KRISTEN WHITE.. If you read my blog again, you are considered a BLOG HO, meaning you read everyone elses but don't have one! Next time I hear from you, I want to hear you have a blog and I want your blog address! Oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope you enjoyed your songs last night... One more thing.. Your doing at great job with ISP, especially the trips to Rwanda.. Keep it up..

SO there are a couple of things that bug me about the gym and here is a list in no particular order:

Things that bug me at the gym:

- The Person that stares at me every single time I give them my free pass, Like they don't know what they want to do with this piece of paper..

- The girl that talked on the phone for 15 mins straight while walking on the treadmill.. Really, are you there to work out or talk to friends.

- People with horrible body odor

- When I drop my iPod on the treadmill and it makes a loud noise and falls off the belt and then everyone looks at you like, "what have you done? how dare you interupt my workout with that noise!" Sorry!

Alright, thats it.. I'm spent. but before I go I leave you with a psalm.

Psalm 143

1Hear my prayer, O LORD;
give ear to my pleas for mercy!
In your faithfulness answer me, in your righteousness!
2Enter not into judgment with your servant,
for no one living is righteous before you.

3For the enemy has pursued my soul;
he has crushed my life to the ground;
he has made me sit in darkness like those long dead.
4Therefore my spirit faints within me;
my heart within me is appalled.

5I remember the days of old;
I meditate on all that you have done;
I ponder the work of your hands.
6I stretch out my hands to you;
my soul thirsts for you like a parched land.
Selah

7Answer me quickly, O LORD!
My spirit fails!
Hide not your face from me,
lest I be like those who go down to the pit.
8Let me hear in the morning of your steadfast love,
for in you I trust.
Make me know the way I should go,
for to you I lift up my soul.

9Deliver me from my enemies, O LORD!
I have fled to you for refuge![a]
10Teach me to do your will,
for you are my God!
Let your good Spirit lead me
on level ground!

11For your name's sake, O LORD, preserve my life!
In your righteousness bring my soul out of trouble!
12And in your steadfast love you will cut off my enemies,
and you will destroy all the adversaries of my soul,
for I am your servant.

I'm a Trader Joes-aholic

2006-01-26T10:02:00.000-08:00

So I went to TJ's last night to get dinner, because the caf' closes at 6:30 and I didn't get off of work till 6:45..anyways.. I told myself that I was only going to buy dinner, and next thing you know I'm getting a basket and filling it up with healthy snack food and easy meals I can cook if I don't feel like eatting in the caf'. about and hour and a half later and about forty dollars out of my pocket, I finally get in my car and head to Von's.. Sorry TJ but you don't have just a quart of Lactose free milk or zip-lock bags. Since TJ's is so dear to my heart. I feel that I shoudl let you know what are some of the best things I bought. SO here are th best and the worst things I bought in no particular order.

Good Buy's:
1. Dried Pineapple.. It taste a lot better then they look.
2. Dried Bannana.. I bought them because Nikki and I saw then last time, and they actually are really good.
3. Cury Chicken Salad.. Goes great with a whole wheat pita.
4. Green tea.. It beats the water that I have only been drinking for two weeks.

Bad Buy's:
Egg White Salad: Don't buy it.. It's not that good at all. Infact its disgusting.

I'll keep you my dirty little secret... Not Really..

2006-01-23T22:24:00.000-08:00

Alright, since I got the Good Ol' Tag by Wess, I guess I will do it. SO here are my 5 guilty pleasures.

5. I am madly in love with Trader Joe's.. Seriously..If Trader Joe's was a woman I'd marry her... I go there like 3 times a week.. I almost went today but I couldn't think of anything to buy. But I did go Last night and made dinner for nikki and I... Which leades to the next one.

4. I like cooking and baking. It sounds kind of domestic, but I really do.. I just wish I had a kitchen to cook in. I guess Nikki's will do for now.

3. Beyonce and Destiny's Child.. Nuff said..

2. I enjoy learning how to make make alcoholic drinks and having friends try them... I have even thoght about going to bartending school in the near future... I think it's because of all these jobs I am getting to serve drinks. Serve not drink!

1. HAHA.. This one is deffintaly a guilty pleasure... HAHA.. I can't believe I am going to share this.. but oh well.. Two of my favorite reality TV shows are Project Runnway and Blow out.. they are both on Bravo.. haha I can't believe I spilled the beans on that one..

and for an extra one.. One of my recent guilty pleasures is Risk.. I suck at it.. but I really like it. and on with Board games.. I am a big fan of monopoly.

Alright, enough... It's time to pass on the Tag and I am going to pass it back to the Howell family and pick the pooty.. Nikki It's your turn to spill the beans. .. Click on Nikki Pooty to see if she posted it or not.

Sunday.

2006-01-22T23:30:00.000-08:00

This Sunday was amazing at church. A couple of things brought me to tears this morning, which I am going to share with you. I wish I could share more, but I need to get in bed so I can go work out tomorrow.

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blessed assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Psalm 139
Search Me, O God, and Know My Heart
To the choirmaster. A Psalm of David.

1O LORD, you have searched me and known me!
2You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
you discern my thoughts from afar.
3You search out my path and my lying down
and are acquainted with all my ways.
4Even before a word is on my tongue,
behold, O LORD, you know it altogether.
5You hem me in, behind and before,
and lay your hand upon me.
6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
it is high; I cannot attain it.

7Where shall I go from your Spirit?
Or where shall I flee from your presence?
8If I ascend to heaven, you are there!
If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
9If I take the wings of the morning
and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
10even there your hand shall lead me,
and your right hand shall hold me.
11If I say, "Surely the darkness shall cover me,
and the light about me be night,"
12even the darkness is not dark to you;
the night is bright as the day,
for darkness is as light with you.

13For you formed my inward parts;
you knitted me together in my mother's womb.
14I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.[a]
Wonderful are your works;
my soul knows it very well.
15My frame was not hidden from you,
when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
16Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
in your book were written, every one of them,
the days that were formed for me,
when as yet there were none of them.

17How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18If I would count them, they are more than the sand.
I awake, and I am still with you.

19Oh that you would slay the wicked, O God!
O men of blood, depart from me!
20They speak against you with malicious intent;
your enemies take your name in vain![b]
21Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against you?
22I hate them with complete hatred;
I count them my enemies.

23Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts![c]
24And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting![d]

Sad Day

2006-01-17T19:03:00.000-08:00

I just found out that I'm not getting to go to Germany this summer.. I'm kind of Bummed, but hopefully God has something better in plan.. I can go home and make some money this summer, but going home just seems like a let down.. anyone know of some place where I can work and have fun and be able to pay my car payment and have some spending money, let me know.. I'm kind of desperate.. later.